Wednesday, December 29, 2010

I have a blog where I started this story about my relationship with David. Here is the link if you want to get updated;

So after he left I didn’t hear from him for two years before he came to visit. There were lots of people around when we finally saw each other again but that didn’t matter much to me. We just made this incredible contact and both of us fell into the rabbit hole while the people around us started doing their best to distract us from merging with each other. But we had spent almost 15 years living in each others’ mind and we both missed going to that special place where the magic happens. I told him that I owed him a debt that I could never repay. But he already knew that. We both needed certain things from the world at that particular time, which were crucial to our survival, and coming together like that was something that came natural to us when we had to materialize what we needed from the world. Finally we both came to the surface and went our separate ways again. And then, within a week of that meeting, the materialization we both needed happened for of us.

So it’s been another three years of not seeing him or hearing from him when the other day I get a letter from him telling me he’s coming for a visit. I can’t help thinking that there is something that he needs my help in materializing. But I have lived unattached to the surface for so long since he left that the world has nothing to offer me at this point. Besides, I don’t think it’s a material thing that he’s after. I’m sure by this time he’s found out that he can’t sell himself to the world the way he wants with my love still there, deep down inside his being.

I told him before he left the first time that he was going to find himself in the same box he put me into by leaving, and I added that I hoped he had a better understanding of God, when that happened, or he would never get out. And so I imagine the box is closing in on him and he is looking for release from my love, or as he sees it now, my curse. But there is nothing I can do. He should never have tried to free himself by using me as a stepping stone. At the time he was thinking it would be such a traumatic time for me that I would be more of a victim to what happened than a witness.
But now the time has come for me to pick up the sword of truth. and with heavy heart, drive it home.


  1. this is very interesting and thought provoking reading Suzzy. I can relate to him in some ways...

  2. Hi love, careful with that sword. Wait for the kiss of truth.

    When is he coming to visit?


  3. Hi David, Always, I try to be thought provoking. Sometimes I succeed. Men do have a tendency to fall into this hole. Mostly, I think, they get away with it. Thanks for stopping by.

  4. Hi love, He's coming to visit in January. I'm going to try to stay on the surface and pretend to be who he wants me to be. I don't think he wants to see the reality of the situation. Hugs, back at you.

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