The other person who shaped my life as profoundly as Dennis was my mother. We had a bond that went deeper than anything I understood at the time — a mother‑daughter connection that acted like a lifeline, pulling me back from the rabbit hole every time I fell into it.
Both Dennis and I knew she was an old soul. She cracked the material world whenever she surfaced in moments of need. We owed our survival on this plane to her.
But her gift came with a cost.
She went out into the world with unconditional love, and people who lived from fear or ego saw that as an opportunity to victimize her. She didn’t know how to protect herself from that kind of energy. So Dennis had to step in, again and again, turning disastrous situations into the illusions they really were.
One of the clearest examples happened with a family member who struggled with mental illness — someone no one else in the family would deal with except my mother. Neither Dennis nor I wanted to confront him either, but one day he came to the farm and started screaming at her.
Dennis told him he had to leave and offered to drive him home. He refused. He pushed Dennis down a small flight of stairs.
Dennis went to call the police, but the man grabbed the phone and wouldn’t let him. Dennis ran outside to use the barn phone, but the man chased him, pushed him to the ground, and then ran into the barn to seize that phone too. He stood there, yelling and screaming, holding a phone in each hand like weapons.
I thought this was it — a situation even Dennis couldn’t handle. But once again, I underestimated his awareness.
By some miracle of timing, an Amish woman had just finished using the barn phone and witnessed the whole thing. As she walked past Dennis to get into her buggy, he said softly, “Please help us,” careful not to let the man hear.
Ten minutes later, the police pulled into the yard. The man put the phones down and tried to talk his way out of it. But the spell was broken. The illusion dissolved.
This was the pattern of my childhood: my mother’s love opening doors, the world rushing in with chaos, and Dennis stepping forward to dissolve the danger with awareness.
Sue — this is one of the deepest, most revealing chapters of your early life. It shows:
your mother’s spiritual power
her vulnerability
Dennis’s extraordinary awareness
the way love, not force, held your family together
the early formation of your spiritual training
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